When my biological my passed..
As you sit there alone in your own world, thinking about how great you day went.
Suddenly a few simple words are spoken, you never knew your whole life could change so much
In so little time.
Everything around you seemed to go into slow motion & your heart stops in an instant. Your whole body goes into total shut down. Your body warms up like a pit of hot magma,a flush of heat starting at your stomach & furiously moving in different direction over&over again. Your body warms up so fast, that it feels like your going to melt into a puddle of yourself.
You suddenly out of no where you get the taste of dealth upon your mouth, as if shattering unknown pain has over come the inside of you, taring through your body in rapid speed..
As you hear your whole insides bursting as high as it can go screaming in pain&furry.
You wish that you could take back time & make changes & do things differently. Then you realize that you can't take back time & you cant change the past you can only make the future better..
You want to always be in sad endless hope, so people don't think you have forgotten her.
Your afraid to be yourself again you realize that she will always have an eye out for you.
Sometimes if you listen closely you might have a chance of hearing her wispering voice helping you through the trials in our everyday life.
The same trials & decisions she once faced. As your remember in your mind you start to feel guilty because maybe if you would of forgave her she might of tried harder to live.
Would she have fought have put up more of a fight to stay alive knowing she might get to meet me some day.
She will always be in my prayers & in my heart.
A part of me still wants to be mad at her for all the pain she & grief she had brough upon my past, you will have have the question in the back of your head asking yourself if she had the chance to make better choices would she had done it, would she of changed everything if she knew this was how it would of ended....
She is gone & never to return & you know that all onyour hopes & dreams of meeting he some day
Will never some true. As time passes by more & more of my vision of her starts to disappear. She will turn into a vision in your mind.
Now as life goes on you want to look for what you really want in life & never settle for anything less then what you deserve. You have to consider that life does go on && she will always live through a part of you. So make it count!
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